This week has been a different kind of week. I went in to work to find out that my roomie, who happens to work with me, was let go. It seemed as if everyone around was screaming and running around in circles. “What will you do? How will you make it? Where will the money come from?” All questions, that indeed, one might expect to be running around my head….but instead, the big question….”How is he?” I was determined that the bosses would not see reaction from me….isn’t that what was expected? I hunkered down and did my job. When I got home that day, I walked through the doors and was greeted with the question, “What will we do?” I answered, matter of factly, “Whatever needs to be done.” It was the first time in a very long time that I felt that much resolution well up inside me.
I have told you all before that, in my croning years, I have become somewhat of a worrier. This was not the case years ago. I used to welcome any challenges….the harder the better. I used to thrive on change and uncertainty. Is that what youth entails? Do the young thrive on the unpredictable and the questionable? No…..this is not a right awarded to the young. This is a mantle placed on the strong of heart.
I left the condo especially early this morning. As I placed my backpack on my shoulder and wrapped myself in the warmth of my cloak, the little dog at my feet waited for me to put him inside his hoodie. He danced around me knowing that we were going to meet the morning sunrise on his terms. I carried friends with me to the woods this morning….their spirits engraved in my spirit.
When we got to the woods, I set everything up. I put the wolf skull and the crow skull into place….placed the candles on their respective sides and then brought out my abalone shell and my sage bundle. As I lit the sage and started fanning it all around me, I closed my eyes and saw many of the dreams that have come to me through the week. I know that so many have psychic abilities….I believe that one of my giftings comes when I sleep. In the dream realm, I am able to see the spiritual….the magickal….and the powerful.
The dreams I have been having this week involve me and two other male witches. In most of the dreams we are circled together in a catacomb setting….there are candles lit all around. On a tree stump in the middle of us is a large leather bound book and our wands. As we begin the ritual, light begins to glow around each of us….red around me, blue around the friend to my left and green around the friend to my right. Each night the dream has gotten stronger with a more powerful energy encircling us. The final dream had us in a wooded area…stump table in the middle….book and wands. We took each others hands and began to chant. As we chanted, the book and wands began to rise. To the left, the friend is radiating blue light….to the right, the friend is radiating green light…..in the center, red light pours forth from me. The light and energies swirl around us to combine into one large golden energy field. We rise above the ground….flying in a circle in the midst of the trees. We laugh as we move….by no effort of our own. We know that there is a power there that none of us have ever experienced. The final dream was last night. As we rose into the air and spun with the forces of energy, a doe came into view. She was snow white with a brilliant silver tuft of hair just in the center of her head. Behind her was a buck….that same brilliant white with gold antlers and shimmering gold eyes. Our eyes met and I recognized both and they recognized me. It was obvious that they were both spirit beings.
My dream life has been very active this week. As I lay there in the leaves strewn across the floor of the woods, I could feel Friz rousing. He either saw or heard something in the trees beyond us. I looked up and saw a doe many feet from us. I urged Friz to be quiet so that she would stay as long as possible…..I realized that we were there in the midst of magick. At that moment, I called to the Lord of the Forest and waited for his energy to surround me. As I heard the wind blowing through the trees and felt it moving around me, I knew that he was there. The doe stood stock still staring at me and that little blue chihuahua for the longest time. I called on the energy of the Horned One to fill me….to stir that pure wild energy that I longed for. At that moment, the doe spooked and jumped and bounded off into the distance…..but at that moment, I could also feel the energy of the Horned One along with Wolf and Mama Crow. I could feel something rising in my chest. In that moment, I felt that little blue chihuahua bristle up and a strong and mighty “Buffff!” rose from deep inside of him. I laughed and rolled back onto the leaves and he jumped into the middle of my stomach. Even he had felt the power.
I know that the next few weeks may bring challenges for me….but I also know that they will tap into a strength that only my connection with a power greater than I can bring. I must never doubt the power that resides within me. It is that power that the Lord and Lady join with to make the magick rise. It is in that connection with others that makes me rise against whatever may come against me.
What do I feel now? I feel peace. I feel strength. I feel power. None of these shall ever desert me. It is my choice whether to embrace them or leave them in the cauldron by the door.
Take my hands brothers and sisters. Let us fly far beyond anything that will try to keep us from that magickal part of us that hungers to rise higher and higher until we are flying next to the moon.