For some of my friends, this year has brought a rough winter. They’ve been faced with, and buried by, tall snow drifts. And this winter, I feel we have all been buried in some fashion…whether it be in snow or ice or emotions or pain. This past year has been a year of death and endings; this winter has been exhausting.
I have watched those I care deeply about struggle and trudge uphill, only to be met with cold winds and pushed backward by other forces or energies. So many have been confused and been made to stumble against the blizzards life has brought. So many have taken to hiding from life itself; never wanting to leave the comfort of their own space….others have gone recklessly into the streets causing havoc in the midst of their own turmoil.
My partner just got back from visiting his family in South Dakota. He said the wind was so cold (-40°), that it felt like it was biting to his very bones. Ever felt that fear….that dread…that went to your very bones? This winter has brought that for many. I have heard so many complaining of sickness and depression/discouragement.
This morning, early, I took to the woods with Friz. It was a bitter cold….I was wrapped up in my cloak and had Friz in his hoodie (I think I need to invest in a chihuahua sized wool cloak for mornings like this). I packed my small cauldron away with my other altar supplies in my backpack. When we got to the woods, I unpacked and set up the altar. I lit the charcoal pellet inside and sprinkled incense over it. I lit the candles and placed the skulls. I invited the elements and the directions. I welcomed my familiar spirits wolf and crow.
I found the most incredible thing at my local metaphysical store here in Atlanta. It is called flying paper. You write your spell…wish….intent on the paper and set it on fire and it flies off. I wrote in black ink, my intent onto the paper and the names of those who needed my magick. I watched with childlike eyes as the papers drifted up above me and disintegrated….breathing my intent and magick into the universe. I could feel a lightness in my own spirit as I looked in front of me and could see wolf and crow dancing and playing with each other. Friz was tugging on my cloak and play growling. This past full moon…..something happened…even though the cold of winter is still upon us, the warmth of spring can be felt and smelled. It is, of course, a distant feeling and scent….but it is still there all the same. This I feel in my bones.
I feel a hope and excitement stirring inside of myself. As I sat in front of the cauldron, I pushed all of those feelings into giant balls of intent and moved them out to all of those I know are in deep need. It is that same energy that surrounds the bulbs nestled in the earth…..that anticipation and promise that a beautiful blossom stands at the end of the wait.
We have waited patiently through the winter…through the harsh and bitter cold. It is now time to begin the work. It is time to dig our way out. We come out of hibernation much like the bear…..gaunt and ravenous. We have used up the magickal stores that we gathered and tucked away for the winter months. It is now time to dig into those most magickal parts of our spirits. It is time to nourish our spirits….come out of hiding and watch the magick unfold in front of us.
You can’t tell me that you haven’t felt it stirring. You can’t deny that something has taken grip of your very spirit and sparked your thoughts and feelings…..something new….something powerful. I feel it…..the animals feel it……the elements feel it…..the very earth beneath your feet feels it. Her heart begins to beat with the beat of excitement. A time of rebirth and newness is around the corner. As I lay on the ground this morning in front of my cauldron, I placed my ear to the ground. I could feel the heartbeat of the earth mother…..pregnant with more magick than we could ever fathom.
For some reason, most of us truly fear what the Lord and Lady have called us to. We are afraid of the magick that we pursue so hard. We run toward it and just as we see that it is right there in our grasp, we pull back……afraid that what we have so desired may actually happen. We long to see our gifts and abilities work in full force, but at the same time, are so afraid of it that we dare not tap into what sits right in the palm of our hands.
Do not be afraid to travel a new path;
It may be the way to find what you’ve been looking for all along.
It is time to release all that has held you back through this rough and bitter winter. Release…what a freeing word. Release everything that ever held you back. Don’t you deserve to live in the fullness of the Earth Mother’s heartbeat. Release that anger….that bitterness…that lack of confidence. We are walking…..no, running toward a new season. Take off your shoes and run barefoot toward your destiny.
For Once in your Life, Do Not Live Your Life Afraid!
Experience the freedom of singing out loud and not caring if every note is perfect. Even if you don’t have a stick’s worth of rhythm, dance to the drumbeat of the Earth around you. Look at yourself and see the beauty that is you. Let that inner lion roar….let that inner wolf howl at the moon. You are capable of things that no other person is capable of and you have a purpose. Fear and self-doubt only stifle the magick. The more your heartbeat lines up with the Earth Mother….the stronger that heartbeat will be. This morning, I sang along with a wolf and a crow. I sang to a chihuahua. I laughed with the wind and I danced along to the rhythm of the heartbeat of Mother Earth. Today, my little blue chihuahua and I, walked in the woods alongside Brigid and Cernunnos. Our intentions flew like fireflies dancing across a night sky.
My hope for you this year is that you don’t hold onto those things that bind you and your magick. My hope for you is that you live a life of magick fueled by the heartbeat of the Earth around you…that you learn to sing with the winged ones and the four-leggeds…..that you learn to dance with the wind…..and that you can change the world around you with your intent and magick…..that more than anything, you learn to let go of all those things that don’t serve your spirit in the most powerful of ways.