We always have the best intentions, don’t we? I’m talking about the “Oh, someday I will….” Well, lately I have been in a whirlwind of newness and changes and plodding forwards. One thing that I have learned about life over the years is that it and time never stand still for anyone….they never wait on you. You either move with them…alongside of them or you get left in the dust to wonder why your life never changes.
By now, readers, you know that one of my spirit animals is Crow. I ran across this wonderful bit of information this week:
Crow is the left-handed guardian. Crow knows the unknowable mysteries of creation and is the keeper of all sacred law. There are several species of crow. Raven is one of these and magpies are another. Crow medicine people are masters of illusion. Do not try to figure crow out. It is the power of the unknown at work, and something special is about to happen.
If you have a crow as a totem, you need to be willing to walk your talk and speak your truth. You must put aside your fear of being a voice in the wilderness and “caw” the shots as you see them. Crow is an omen of change. If he keeps appearing to you he may be telling you that you have a powerful voice when addressing issues that you do not quite understand or feel that they are out of balance.
Crows are the bringer of messages from the spirit world, and is thought to dwell beyond the realm of time and space.
When you meet crow, he could be telling you that there will be changes in your life and that possibly you should step by the usual way you view reality and look into the inner realms …walk your talk…be prepared to let go of your old thinking and embrace a new way of viewing yourself and the world.
Crow is the sacred keeper of the law. Crow medicine signifies a firsthand knowledge of a higher order of right and wrong than that indicated by the laws created in human culture. With Crow medicine, you speak in a powerful voice when addressing issues that for you seem out of harmony, out of balance, out of whack, or unjust.
When you learn to allow your personal integrity to be your guide, your sense of feeling alone will vanish. Your personal will can then emerge so that you will stand in your truth. The prime path of true Crow people says to be mindful of your opinions and actions. Be willing to walk your talk, speak your truth, know your life’s mission, and balance past, present, and future in the now. Shape shift that old reality and become your future self. Allow the bending of physical laws to aid in creating the shape shifted world of peace.
I have, as of late, been steadily on the path of self-discovery. Finding out more and more each day who I truly am. It has required much discipline and willingness to look inside and dig out the thorns of the past that have been buried so deeply for so many years. It has also required me to learn to ‘get over myself.’ I have had to learn which habits have hindered me from reaching full potential.
Being a witch encompasses so many things…..it encompasses sharing power with nature and animals and spirits of all sorts. These are magnificent and wonderful responsibilities. In my soul searching over the past few months, I realize that it means so much more. Being a witch, to me, means genuinely being who you say you are and respecting the rights of others for being who they say they are. Do you have to like who they are? No. Is it any of your business? No. To me, it compares with being gay. Do I want or need anyone’s opinions in my bedroom? No…no more than I need them in my cauldron. If I say that I am the Weathered Wiseman, though, I had better walk it wholeheartedly and uncompromisingly.
I have also learned to be mindful of the energy I surround myself with. I have spent more time over the last few months blocking and banishing the energy of others that hangs off of you like one hundred pound weights and sucks every ounce of life and joy out of you. I have found that what was required was eliminating that from my life all together. If that means walking away from certain people because they refuse to take the steps required to change or improve themselves, then that is what I have done. I have had to make the difficult decision of distancing myself from our roommate. He has been offered the opportunity over and over again to better himself, but chooses to wallow in the muck and mire of circumstance and self pity. While I feel like I am a very strong person, I am not strong enough to carry another human through life.
My beautiful friend Maluna said it best during the waning moon:
Last day of the waning moon….it’s been very productive…but looking forward to the new….new projects, plans, moving forward…always….it’s time to banish the unwanted, things not necessary, simplify and enjoy the warm days of summer. With this new moon….growth, gardens, summer trips, children out of school, new adventures, fresh produce, exercise, a healthier lifestyle. So much to look forward to!
Society has taught us to no longer look forward….always back. I have learned that the only reason I need to look back is to see how far I have come. I choose not to whine about the things I don’t have, but to enjoy and be thrilled with what I do. I can take a lesson from my partner in this. He can be very child-like at times. He looks at something and most times can see the wonder and newness in it. He can easily get lost in the fun of some of the most mundane situations. He believes in meeting the immediate need. He saw an old orange cat wandering the complex a couple weeks back….nowadays, most people would call the pound. He called the cat over to a bowl of food and then made him a place to sleep.
I have determined that I am looking forward from now on (for the most part). When you walk, you don’t walk backward….obstacles constantly get in the way. You always walk forward with a purpose. This morning, I got up around 5:30am and Friz and I headed toward the woods. Friz can sometimes get tangled up in his surroundings because he likes to meander. Friz had his head to the ground sniffing….and as he did, he wandered into some branches that had fallen from the rainstorm yesterday. His leash got tangled first…then his feet…until Friz was rendered completely immobile by this branch. The only thing he knew to do was to look up at me and whimper. I spent a good part of fifteen minutes getting him loose. Afterwards, he decided to bark at the mean old branch that caused him so much trauma. It didn’t seem to matter that he wasn’t paying attention to begin with.
But you know, isn’t that how we are? It is often easier to get mad at what gets us tangled up than to be accountable for the fact that it was our carelessness that brought us there to start with. Even better, it is easier for us to play the part of that person who has it all together and look down our nose at others as the dirt castle around us turns to mud…or we are that person who people have invested themselves and their energy in…but we choose not to change ourselves at all…we enjoy the attention we get by whining and being the victim. No matter what the scenario…it is time to change. It is time to be the genuine you. Will everyone like you? No. Will everyone hate you? No….but who cares.
We, as witches and magick workers, have learned over and over that the spellwork is about the intent. Isn’t it time that we actually poured some intent into our own lives? You aren’t going to be happy 100% of the time, but you can be content. This morning, when I went to the woods with Friz, I took ‘flying paper.’ I wrote goals for the next few months on each sheet, twisted them just a bit, then set them on fire. I watched as they soared upward….giving wings to my intentions. I smiled as I watched them fly. I laughed at the little blue chihuahua chasing them as they rose. He was so traumatized only minutes earlier, but now all was forgotten as he chased hopes that were lifting toward the sky.
Isn’t it time to finally live life with a purpose and stop winding ourselves tighter? I choose to watch my intentions soar.