Tonight is two nights after Samhain. This year, Samhain brought in cold and howling winds and rain. As I communed with my ancestors, I listened intently as the wind hammered against the side of the condo. The trees whipped back and forth. One could feel the cold prying its fingers in through the window sills. It reminded me of an old quote from Mary Poppins,
Winds from the East…Mist coming in
Like something’s a brewing, about to begin
Can’t put my finger on what lies in store…
But I feel what’s to happen, all happened before!
In the new year that is coming upon us, it seems that my theme is to be slowing down. I am one of those people who, if not careful, will allow myself to become a frenzy of work and home life and everything else in between. Most of my life is lived at full tilt…just like most other people. Ever have those weeks when magick can become an afterthought?
I love the quote at the start of the blog. We let life on a daily basis push magick away from us. We let circumstances and emotions push the magick all the way to the back of our minds. Then when everything else seems exhausted, we think, “Oh yeah, I am a witch.” Shall I raise my hands, wave them about and scream ‘Guilty’ at the top of my lungs?
Last week, I spent the majority of my time nursing a sprained ankle. Last night, I ended up in the emergency room because when I drifted off to sleep, moments later I would awaken myself gasping for air. I amaze myself sometimes. I am the first to send healing, Reiki, or any other magick to anyone else…but I tend to lose my brain and any magickal abilities when it comes to myself. Thinking back on it…if I had just stopped, calmed myself and done some Reiki and magick combined, I would have been fine.
Well, the diagnosis came back just as me and the doctor suspected. I am fat. I am sedentary. I don’t exercise enough. His solution? Lose weight. Exercise…walk. Get outside more. I laughed out loud. My medically, scientific minded doctor was telling this nature-loving witch that he needs to be outside more. He asked if I had a dog that I could take on long walks in the brisker fall air. I told him I did and that we normally take short morning walks. He asked my habits. After reluctantly admitting that I am mostly a couch potato, my doctor looked at me, laughed out loud and said matter-of-factly, “You have become far to domesticated.”
Domesticated? I became a bit indignant. I have always considered myself a bit of a wild man. I am not like the ones in the earlier quote. I am not domesticated. After I pushed past my hurt feelings, I started thinking to myself…”When was the last time you ran through the woods or outside? When is the last time you were able without gasping for air? When is the last time you let a youthful sparkle shine from your eyes? When was the last time that child-like wonder escaped from you with the sharp intake of breath that comes from seeing magick happen up close and personal?”
After arriving back home, I sat and thought about a game plan. The doctor and I agreed that organic, healthy eating habits would be best. Lean proteins, lots of green leafy veggies and plenty of fruits and nuts would help to get my body functioning more normally. Exercise…such an ugly word. Thankfully we are heading into the darker months of the year…this time of year is an energizer for me. I function better in briskness and cool. Mine and Friz’s walks are going to have to become longer….he will be more than happy. He pulls constantly when we walk…as if he knows that I need to expend more energy…as if urging me to move more.
My dear friend Cindy posted a photo on her Facebook page. This photo said, “November s the month of transformation. It is time to prepare for the coming winter and a time to strengthen communication.” My preparation is to be more brisk walks….music that inspires magick penetrating my headphones…a chihuahua for motivation…and healthy, delicious foods. It is time for re-teaching. It is time to listen to the heart of the Morrigan…there is a battle waging inside me now. It is up to me. I want to encourage that wild part of my spirit to surface…that heart of wolf who runs with the wind…that heart of crow who flies higher and higher.
As the earth goes to sleep, it is my time to listen to my body, my heart and my spirit. I sat in the woods this morning huddled in my cloak, Friz tucked underneath with my personal sized Book of Shadows in my hands (it is kind of like my ‘spells on the go’ book). I am sitting there trying to write a spell to accomplish what I want accomplished. Maybe it was writer’s block…maybe I was thinking too hard. I decided to take a hint from my most magickal little blue dog. I raised my head, nose to the wind. I could smell the leaves around me….the cold tickled my nose. It was exhilarating!
Leaves swirl around me with abandoned delight…
My breath hangs in front of me here in my sight.
As the earth darkens around me, seeds of growth sown
New beginnings, new disciplines, a new heart will be shown.
Magickal workings encompass me round…
I listen and act so that blessings abound.
My body and mind and my spirit align…
Victory, health and prosperity are mine.
By word and action and now by deed,
As I will, so mote it be.
As if on cue, I hear Mama Crow behind me. I look up and there she sits, looking down at me. She offers that guidance I seek. She flies. Reminding me that I need to always remember to do the same. Friz and I head back home, we wrap ourselves in a blanket on the sofa and ‘rest our eyes.’
Later today I read my dear Maluna’s posting:
Man changes our clocks. Animals and some of us listen to our bodies….never mind human reasoning…it is what it is….Moon up…leaves down…I look at the positive….more time to see and spend with the silver globe of light….Full moon this week….work for healings, positive change for some….with the swirl of the holidays upon us…the temptations of wondrous delicacies…it’s time to take charge of your body…your eating habits….. bundle up and get outside…walk, yoga, dance…clean house…(yes it burns calories)….incorporate fruits and veggies in your diet of comfort food…and yesssss we all want the hearty, heavy creamy stuff….just balance with nutrition also. Excellent few days to put this program into motion…many depend on you…be healthy, for yourself…and those who love you! Now….go dance under that glorious moon…she’ll always dance along with you! BB
So here we go! Blessed Be!